LAUREN Goodger has opened up about feeling “broken” and “alone” after her hardest week yet, grieving her daughter Lorena.
The former The Only Way Is Essex star took to her Instagram stories to detail how she was struggling with the heartbreaking loss.
Lauren, 35, recently suffered a horrifying heartbreak when her second baby girl tragically passed away after birth.
The reality star, who was attacked shortly after her daughter’s funeral, has been trying to come to terms with the loss while being a single parent to her daughter Larose, one.
“Been the hardest week yet, so many feelings and thoughts and sadness,” she penned over a snap of her late daughter’s hand.
“Don’t know where to turn right now. Posting on my social media, keeping busy, but inside I am broken and it’s not getting any easier, it’s getting harder.
“It feels like I’ve had so much to deal with and as much as people are there for you, I’m so alone.
“Nothing will change what I’ve been through, but there must be a god and some sort of good to come from all this.”
It comes after Lauren admitted her “mixed feelings” about leaving her baby daughter Larose after heading out on a night out.
The doting mum took to her Instagram stories to reveal last weekend marked her first baby-free evening in two years.
Revealing she was leaving Larose with her mum Cheryl, Lauren filmed her baby daughter crawling around the living room of her home.
“I’ve never been to a party or out and left Larose before. But it’s come to that time when I have to start socialising,” she penned.
“She is now over one year and I’m not pregnant any more – after two years. Nanny is babysitting so I can relax.”
“Larose used to her and I wouldn’t be going if it wasn’t my best mate’s 30th!!” Lauren continued in her post.
“I’m feeling mixed feelings but I know it’s healthy it’s her bedtime in 5 hours away loll but I can’t wait to get home already miss her.”
Lauren later returned to her stories to show off her glamorous make-up look before heading out to the birthday party.
“I’ve waited for this day that I can do my make up properly!” she said. “I was a mess when I was pregnant, now my skin, body and glow is coming back and make-up goes on much better.
“Sorry for the story spam, tonight is my first baby night out in two years. I can’t wait to dance.”
Lauren went on to show snippets from the Essex party, as she danced with her close pals on the dance floor and sipped drinks at the bar.
The Sun revealed last week that Lauren had visited a beauty salon telling fans: “I am taking every bit of self love I can.”
“It’s been 2 years since I’ve had work on my face I had 2 babies back to back and had a lot of heartache pain and traumas but I am finding me again,” she penned.